Marie’s poetry&novels

ADHD creates highs

Makes me love things in my mind.

But sometimes it fades, And I wonder

Was I influenced to love it, Or was it all in the moment?

But some things last

They root deep in my mind

Running up my spine

Holding their place

Creeping up

Appearing in front of my face

Plain to see

Storing in my mind

My mind runs deep

Deeper than anyone I’ve ever met

A garden of jungle

A genius of mess

A place only I know

It can be happy and full of color,

And it can be sad

You can question everything you’ve ever known:

Is this what I think Or you?

I don’t know

Is this what is right

Or is this what I am influenced to believe?

Why is everyone so brainwashed?

Why can’t we see beyond the lens?

What’s holding everyone back?

What is the cause of this?

Why do I think so much about everything?

I can do nothing about?

I write words on a page

Hoping someone will read them

And understand

But will they?

Or am I just crazy?

Will this be gone by the time something else

Flickers my eye

Grasping my attention

Quicker than the blink of an eye?

My mind is constantly flooded with thoughts,

Nowhere for them to run

Before ten more thoughts come,

Ruining what had already begun.

Maybe I should do this,

Or maybe that

Well, what about this?

Like I need to finish my book,

But I am writing this

Where did all the time go?

I’ll do it tomorrow

A song I need to listen to

A voice in my mind

My thoughts crammed inside

Feelings on the outer layers

That I don’t know what to do with

Sometimes it’s too much,

And sometimes it’s just enough

When I use it right

It’s the best superpower I got

But when it’s used wrong

It can be your worst enemy

Many tasks can be started

But tons are never finished

Just open tabs added to your mind

Haunting you of all the things

you never achieved

To add tp tomorrow’s list

But then

The golden light

Now

I’ve got to do this now

Focus takes hold

I’m burning with magic

Both fearless

and bold

Something unstoppable

More powerful than ADHD itself

Something we have to love

To want this much

Every hum goes silent

Every voice drowns out

Every song that clouds on top the mound

Fades

Peace

Happiness

Want

Before it quickly fades to something new

Just to be replaced out of the blue

We’re often misjudged for lazy,

But could you function with all this In your mind all the time?

We have to fight

To do what normally people can do easily

Haven’t we tried enough

This mind is wired With every mood

Every emotion

Every thought

There are no bounds

No limits

They cram in all at once

Begging to be given attention

We feel everything

We experience everything raw

We think in ways

Normal brains don’t convey

Everything I would like to say

Could not possibly fit on this page

I wish it could

So you would know

What it’s like to live this way

I think of normal minds

As minds at ease

While they have their anxiety

It doesn’t loop like mine.

I see a stillness profound

Silent walls that close around

That never need to be drowned out

Because there’s nothing there

Nothing they need to explore

Because they don’t see anything wrong

What was the point of writing this?

I don’t know

My mind is not a curse

But you have to fight To make it a blessing

To use it in these ways

The only way to keep my mind at peace

Is to write on a page

It keeps my mind at ease

And my words have a purpose

That aren’t just stored

For only I to know

I hate the thought of that

What I know

The world needs to as well

Before it’s too late

Its noisy in here

But wonder runs deep