ADHD creates highs
Makes me love things in my mind.
But sometimes it fades, And I wonder
Was I influenced to love it, Or was it all in the moment?
But some things last
They root deep in my mind
Running up my spine
Holding their place
Creeping up
Appearing in front of my face
Plain to see
Storing in my mind
My mind runs deep
Deeper than anyone I’ve ever met
A garden of jungle
A genius of mess
A place only I know
It can be happy and full of color,
And it can be sad
You can question everything you’ve ever known:
Is this what I think Or you?
I don’t know
Is this what is right
Or is this what I am influenced to believe?
Why is everyone so brainwashed?
Why can’t we see beyond the lens?
What’s holding everyone back?
What is the cause of this?
Why do I think so much about everything?
I can do nothing about?
I write words on a page
Hoping someone will read them
And understand
But will they?
Or am I just crazy?
Will this be gone by the time something else
Flickers my eye
Grasping my attention
Quicker than the blink of an eye?
My mind is constantly flooded with thoughts,
Nowhere for them to run
Before ten more thoughts come,
Ruining what had already begun.
Maybe I should do this,
Or maybe that
Well, what about this?
Like I need to finish my book,
But I am writing this
Where did all the time go?
I’ll do it tomorrow
A song I need to listen to
A voice in my mind
My thoughts crammed inside
Feelings on the outer layers
That I don’t know what to do with
Sometimes it’s too much,
And sometimes it’s just enough
When I use it right
It’s the best superpower I got
But when it’s used wrong
It can be your worst enemy
Many tasks can be started
But tons are never finished
Just open tabs added to your mind
Haunting you of all the things
you never achieved
To add tp tomorrow’s list
But then
The golden light
Now
I’ve got to do this now
Focus takes hold
I’m burning with magic
Both fearless
and bold
Something unstoppable
More powerful than ADHD itself
Something we have to love
To want this much
Every hum goes silent
Every voice drowns out
Every song that clouds on top the mound
Fades
Peace
Happiness
Want
Before it quickly fades to something new
Just to be replaced out of the blue
We’re often misjudged for lazy,
But could you function with all this In your mind all the time?
We have to fight
To do what normally people can do easily
Haven’t we tried enough
This mind is wired With every mood
Every emotion
Every thought
There are no bounds
No limits
They cram in all at once
Begging to be given attention
We feel everything
We experience everything raw
We think in ways
Normal brains don’t convey
Everything I would like to say
Could not possibly fit on this page
I wish it could
So you would know
What it’s like to live this way
I think of normal minds
As minds at ease
While they have their anxiety
It doesn’t loop like mine.
I see a stillness profound
Silent walls that close around
That never need to be drowned out
Because there’s nothing there
Nothing they need to explore
Because they don’t see anything wrong
What was the point of writing this?
I don’t know
My mind is not a curse
But you have to fight To make it a blessing
To use it in these ways
The only way to keep my mind at peace
Is to write on a page
It keeps my mind at ease
And my words have a purpose
That aren’t just stored
For only I to know
I hate the thought of that
What I know
The world needs to as well
Before it’s too late
Its noisy in here
But wonder runs deep